Sunday, October 28, 2007
I guess some people never know how much their words can impact people. I had no idea I was that type of a person. Now that I know, I'm not going to stay the same anymore. I joke and laugh because I want to make people laugh and liven up the atmosphere, but in the end I appear like some kind of idiot. Everybody has their own problems; I'm not comparing with anybody. But what you don't know will shock you. Its just that I escape all these trauma whenever possible, but the fact remains that it'll always be there. Please don't assume that I'm always that smiling, treating jokes about me as a brush-off. Sometimes, it really hurts. So, everything will change now. That's why I always say, there aren't friends forever. Maybe there is, but its not happening to me right now. So what if I cried the previous two nights? Nobody cared, and ever will, except for God who will always listen to his children, Mum, Sis, maybe Bro? So I'll believe in God, that He will bring me through it if my faith is strong enough. I will depend on myself for everything.
I'm not trying to make myself out all pitiful and stuff. This is what I feel and this is the only place where I can vent all my feelings. And I'm not angry, just feeling lethargic from life. I'll keep caring about my friends as before, and if they get sick or are troubled by problems I'll be there to care. I'll be praying for Iris, June, LaySing, Eileen, Alicia, PRB, dtrm05, my mum, my brother and my sis and the unfortunate in this world.
Someday;
it'll all be fine.
Labels: emotions
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